I don’t want my daughter to be your hero

The girls recently started transitioning to daycare, with today being their official first day. It’s been going well thanks to our amazing nanny who stays with them and is so great with the girls, and especially Ella. The girls’ school is not yet accessible and I don’t think there’s ever been a child with different […]

I don’t know what the hell I’m doing

Do you ever have those moments, usually in the midst of chaos, where you just suddenly realize that you have absolutely no idea what you are doing? It’s as if you are no longer an adult, capable of making decisions, but more like a child trying to navigate an insanely huge world. I’ve had that […]

The tattooed Mama

We all know not to judge a book by its cover, but who doesn’t really? If the cover isn’t appealing to you, why would you even bother picking it up? People are the same way; we’re attracted or turned off by what we see, but sometimes we miss out on some truly amazing people because […]

We’re 19 months old!

19 months! So hard to believe that every day the girls are getting closer and closer to two, though right now they’re only 16 months corrected. The girls are starting daycare in September and will start transitioning soon. What an adjustment that will be in so many ways! Ella is reaching more and further away […]

I’m not a better mum than you

The other day one of my co-workers and I were chatting and they said something I’ve heard countless times since the girls’ births at 29 weeks, “I don’t know how you do it.” Every time someone says this to me, I’m unsure how to respond.  The truth is, I don’t really know, either. I definitely […]

Let’s talk about that adapted swing

Depending on where you live, your local playground might feature some adapted equipment, most likely a swing. Our playground across the street was recently updated to be slightly more accessible; the sand that was throughout the whole playground was converted to a rubberized ground that’s easier to walk on, or push a stroller or wheelchair […]

Everything is a big deal in special needs parenting

There’s a lot of differences between typical parenting and special needs parenting. There’s lots of ups and downs and there’s a lot of things that as a parent, you need to accept. But, I think one of the most wonderful parts of being a special needs parent is finding the joy and excitement in everything,  […]

I’m just a fluffy marshmallow

Have you ever been in your car and looked over and the person next to you was crying? You don’t know why, and you don’t even know them, but you feel like you should do something? You offer a sympathetic smile or wave as you make eye contact before both of you driving off. Last […]

The Separated Mama

I’ve pretty much written about everything; my c section, breastfeeding,  my battle with my weight, my fears for Ella. But I haven’t written much about my relationship. For so many reasons, I didn’t, and I really always felt like I was living a lie. And truth be told, I was. Everyone has assumed things about […]

What do you mean you’re not babies anymore?

The other night both girls were up and frantic, and after the third time of pacing with Raegan, I walked by my full-length mirror and snuck a peek. Seriously, my baby is gigantic. Let’s be real; Raegan will always be Itty Bitty to me, but seeing her, her body draped across mine, I realized, she’s […]