She gets it from her Mama 

2016 is soon ending, and it was just one of those years-simultaneously flew by and went on forever. It was a tough year, with so much going on in the world that would make anyone want to crawl under the covers and await the new year. But, this year was the year I saw Ella […]

All of those memories 

I love Facebook memories for popping up pictures of my babies when they were in fact, babies, and not giants with wild hair and sassy attitudes. But, the last couple of weeks has featured my posts from three years ago-when I was admitted to HRO and living in the hospital to monitor the girls. (Coincidentally, […]

The special needs elite?

This weekend we went to get our Santa picture done as a family and I made sure that we were there before his arrival to avoid massive lines and irritated children.  After waiting for some time, Santa’s elf approached us, and I assumed was going to welcome us as we were next in line, Ella […]

Started from the bottom now we’re here 

Today is World Prematurity Day, a day where we celebrate and honour all babies born too soon. Days like today inevitably lead me to reminisce about our beginning. Flipping back through old Facebook photos, I am amazed at how small those girls were. The smallest babies I’d ever seen. In some ways that time was […]

No, you staring at us is definitely super helpful 

I would be naïve to think that people don’t notice differences; whether it be that it’s just the four of us all the time or the AFOs Ella wears, but I suppose that I assumed that we were much more further along as humans. Really, at first glance, I’m just an average mum pushing a […]

Don’t ask me to predict the future 

It’s hard to believe that just three years ago, I was pregnant with the girls, just trying to get them to be born, not much thinking beyond that. I assumed if they could just be born, just make it that far, that all would be right in the world, and I’d have two adorable, chubby […]

To preschool and beyond 

I had a really difficult decision to make in the spring-to keep the girls together for preschool or to separate them and place Ella in a reverse-inclusion school for kids with different abilities, or special needs. Ultimately, I decided what was best for Ella was to place her in the specialized program, even though it […]

She believed she could, so she did 

I think it’s pretty safe to say that I’ve always been Ella’s number one fan. I never believed she would be anything less than incredible, and she’s proved herself to be just that, as well as sassy and hilarious. Her giggle is infectious and her sentences are so observant. Listening to the girls talk to […]

Would I still have taken the same path had I known its destination?

Every now and then I find myself thinking about life and how strange it is, how you think you’re heading in one direction then the course veers and you go with it, unsure at first, slowly taking steps until you get comfortable and break into your stride.  When I was 20, I was told I […]

Oh that invisible weight on my chest? That’s just the crushing loneliness 

Ever since becoming a mum, I have been the happiest I have ever been. I love watching my little people grow and I find them hilarious. They’re my homies, and we have all kinds of crazy fun together. But, I have also never been this lonely. I think there’s a reason you’re meant to have […]