Oh that invisible weight on my chest? That’s just the crushing loneliness 

Ever since becoming a mum, I have been the happiest I have ever been. I love watching my little people grow and I find them hilarious. They’re my homies, and we have all kinds of crazy fun together. But, I have also never been this lonely. I think there’s a reason you’re meant to have […]

Tis the season?

Ask anyone who has known me for years and they’ll tell you that Christmas is one of my favourite times of the year. The twinkling lights, stockings hung by the fireplace with care, presents wrapped and under the tree before mid-December, all because of my love of the season. This year; however, I’ve been finding […]

Solo parenting one day at a time

Despite everything that was happening in my marriage, one thought that constantly ran through my mind was; can I really do this on my own? Can I do it all without a partner? Of course, I assumed I could not; that the logistics alone of three kids under the age of four would make it […]

The paradoxical hospital

I’m sitting in the same place I’ve sat many times before; the hospital cafeteria. One floor below me, Ella is laying in a giant MRI machine that is capturing pictures of her brain. Her second time, and though I know the routine and what to expect, watching your baby fight the mask meant to put […]

Separated After Twins: Taking a Marriage Break – Twiniversity

In probably one of my most personal blogs for Twiniversity, I open up about my marriage and separation. Since writing this piece, we have begun to figure out how to parent together, though separated. It’s not easy and especially not with two kids who are all about their dad. I swear Raegan’s favourite word is […]

I’m not a better mum than you

The other day one of my co-workers and I were chatting and they said something I’ve heard countless times since the girls’ births at 29 weeks, “I don’t know how you do it.” Every time someone says this to me, I’m unsure how to respond.  The truth is, I don’t really know, either. I definitely […]

Everything is a big deal in special needs parenting

There’s a lot of differences between typical parenting and special needs parenting. There’s lots of ups and downs and there’s a lot of things that as a parent, you need to accept. But, I think one of the most wonderful parts of being a special needs parent is finding the joy and excitement in everything,  […]

I’m just a fluffy marshmallow

Have you ever been in your car and looked over and the person next to you was crying? You don’t know why, and you don’t even know them, but you feel like you should do something? You offer a sympathetic smile or wave as you make eye contact before both of you driving off. Last […]

The Separated Mama

I’ve pretty much written about everything; my c section, breastfeeding,  my battle with my weight, my fears for Ella. But I haven’t written much about my relationship. For so many reasons, I didn’t, and I really always felt like I was living a lie. And truth be told, I was. Everyone has assumed things about […]