Thank you for saving my baby

Yesterday was World Blood Donor Day, and I have a message for someone who is very special to me, yet someone I have never met. Someone who has no idea I exist. But to you, special person, you magnificent soul, you amazing person, thank you. Thank you for saving my baby’s life. Thank you for […]

We’re 17 months!

17 months! I can’t believe that we’re getting closer and closer to two years old and the girls’ ages no longer being corrected. Time has flown by since the last month update. Seems like I blinked and here we are. Surprisingly, Raegan is not walking yet, but she has taken steps on her own. She […]

Mama’s play date with Raegan

I didn’t have to be at work as early this morning, so I stayed home with Raegan. I was going to take Ella to her Conductive Education class, but I’m sick, so decided I better avoid the other babies. I was thinking as I pushed her along in Buds’ old umbrella stroller that I rarely […]

Conversations with my three year old about Cerebral Palsy

Right now I’m holding my breath waiting for the first time Ella asks me why she’s different and what that means. I’ve become teary eyed reading others’ accounts of these talks, but we still have some time before that happens. Buds, on the other hand is three and knows what’s up. He’s smart and empathetic. […]

What does special needs mean, anyway?

I’ve thought about the term “special needs” a lot since the girls were born. As a social worker, I’ve worked with kids and adults with all kinds of levels of functioning and with every type of concern or difficulty you could imagine. I’ve never liked labels. I don’t think social workers should identify anyone or […]

Please pardon my chaotic life

So this post may sound like a long list of excuses, but I feel it’s owed given my long absence.   After getting back from the trip, I was sick, then celebrated our belated Mother’s Day since I missed it, then started a new job and have been working long days and not getting home til […]

Kids are the worst

I just got back yesterday from a week away in London and Paris. (Hence my unusual quietness on the blog front.) Aside from the trip being awesome, it was the first time I was away from the kids, and it made me realize something;  kids are the worst. I mean, think about it. They ruin […]

How far we have come, though not far enough

Today marks the 70th anniversary of the Liberation of Holland. A day special to our family as my maternal grandfather fought for the liberation of Holland in World War two. This year also marks his 90th birthday, which means before the age of twenty, he was fighting to protect others that he had never met,  […]

Man, this parenting crap is hard

You know, I’m not sure if this gets said enough, but this parenting crap is hard. Like, really hard. This week has been rough. Transitioning Ella with the babysitter and seeing her so upset was brutal. I have to practically hold myself back from running to her and giving her giant smooches to feel better. […]

Am I abandoning Ella?

In preparation for my upcoming trip away and then my return to work, we started transitioning the girls with their babysitter so that when I do fly the coop, the girls won’t completely freak out. Except, it’s not exactly going as planned. Today, with Ella sitting on her lap and me right across from her, […]