Would I still have taken the same path had I known its destination?

Every now and then I find myself thinking about life and how strange it is, how you think you’re heading in one direction then the course veers and you go with it, unsure at first, slowly taking steps until you get comfortable and break into your stride.  When I was 20, I was told I […]

Oh that invisible weight on my chest? That’s just the crushing loneliness 

Ever since becoming a mum, I have been the happiest I have ever been. I love watching my little people grow and I find them hilarious. They’re my homies, and we have all kinds of crazy fun together. But, I have also never been this lonely. I think there’s a reason you’re meant to have […]

We’re two and a half!

It seems like only yesterday that the two tiniest babies I’d ever seen squiggled in their isolettes, learning how to breathe, move, and live. In a flash, they’ve become little people, with big personalities. Raegan may be one of the nuttiest tiny humans I’ve ever seen. She has her own flair and way of doing […]

Little ray of sunshine 

I would say that I generally fall under the umbrella of optimistic. Not so much that I live with my head in the clouds, but not so pessimistic that I can’t see the forest through the trees. When I first heard that Ella could have cerebral palsy, I mourned, but I also could not accept […]

Yes, I am staring at your child

The other day, I saw a girl out walking with her parents. Doesn’t really seem like anything out of the ordinary, and yet it was extraordinary. This little girl, probably about eight years old, was walking holding onto her mum’s hands, who was hunched over behind her, and rocking some lovely AFOs. Most people might […]

Tales from the exhausted mama

Once when out with the kids, I turned to my friend and motioned towards the kids, saying, “And THIS is why I’m so exhausted.” Her response was, “How could anyone not expect you to be exhausted?” I suppose it’s true, most parents walk around like exhausted zombies, constantly complaining about whatever stage their kids are […]

In celebration of nurses

There was a time I never really gave nurses much thought. Not that I didn’t care, just that I kind of took them for granted, that when you got sick, nurses would just be there, much like you take oxygen for granted. But when my girls were born just over ten weeks early, I spent […]

Happy Mother’s Day from the other side

According to marketing execs and those in advertising, what mums really want for Mother’s Day is to sleep in followed by breakfast in bed and completed with a lavishly over-the-top designer gift that will instantly make her feel like the hottest mama on the block.  Of course, for any of that to be possible, one […]

What I’ve learned as a preemie mum

Two years ago today, my girls were preparing for their journey home from the NICU, though it wouldn’t happen for another eight days. Of course, prior to their early arrival, I envisioned myself either giving birth or preparing to, given it was my due date, and Braeden arrived the day after his. I didn’t know […]

Born too soon

Two tiny heartbeats jump up and down Nervous faces glance around Mama knows something is wrong You’ll be born before day is done Faces appear behind white masks Explaining their next-to-impossible tasks Time has slowed to a crawl Replaced by tears which begin to fall Then, you are both here No screams or cries to […]